#2

Perhaps you find it as sad as I that my orchids are dying. Alas. What went wrong?

Life is steady. We are going out of town this weekend and some padres of some our friends are going to stay in our house. House guests! What fun!

If only I had something worthwhile to post.

Next week I have orientation. 5 days of orientation. FIVE. Incredible. I will be working at night, but orientation is during the day - which of course inspires mother guilt at leaving Z. Ever since Matt took a million jobs I have tried to reign in my mind and reassure myself that each ______ (day, night alone, dinner by myself, bedtime routine gone solo, Saturday morning without him around,etc) does not actually matter that much. If I place too much importance on it - I feel depressed. And so it goes with mothering. 5 days - only one full day - away from Zoe will not mar her for eternity. Besides, I leave her in good hands.

In other news, I ran across this quote and I enjoy it:

"Many people mistake our work for our vocation. Our vocation is the love of Jesus. " - M.T. ♥"

Shall I...

act like I have a blog?

I have been wanting to challenge myself to a 30 day blog-a-thon. One post, every day for 30 days. I haven't committed yet. We'll see.

Lately I have been madly in love with my daily routine. Ever since school let out it has been easier to breathe, making it easier to do everything else in life. School has a funny way of never feeling finished when in session - no matter what you could be doing something - and so to be free of the fetters that bind me to large nursing textbooks makes me want to sing and dance and skip and run.

All of those I have been doing besides skipping. Singing with Zoe, dancing with Zoe (Louis Armstrong pandora station provides a perfect soundtrack for both of those activities) and running with Natalie! 2 girls, 2 babies and a job make for an interesting mix to try and schedule runs around. But the 6am run seems to be working and I love, love, love being on the

road that early. There is something about when the world is sleeping and you are awake.... I love it. Sign me up for the NOC shift.

So, routine. Here it is:

7am: wake up

feed, change, play with Z

9am: Z nap #1

9a-10:45a - sip coffee cup #1 over bible/jounral/prayer.

clean kitchen

sip coffee cup #2 while performing various household chores (cleaning, laundry, organizing, paying bills, etc)

10:45a-1:30p

feed, change, play with Z

meet with girls/women who I love, admire, want to engage in relationship with.

(aka take advantage of summer, no schoolness)

1:30p-2:00p

cat nap. meow.

2:00p-3:30p

more chores

3:30p-4:45p

try to fill in this awkward, boring, no good gap between when Z wakes up and Matt gets home. Usually involves walking Niko, walking anywhere, misc. nothingness.

try to clean kitchen again so Matt comes home to clean house - though sometimes impossible due to 9.5 month old on the move.

4:45p : MATT HOME

4:45p-6:00p

Feed, change, bathe Z

Cook something scumptous (sans meat) for dinner.

6:00p

Bedtime for Z routine: books, nurse, cuddle, tickle, rock, plop.

6:oop-10:00p

Wonderful whatever.

ta-da. A day in the life of Me.

Every day is such.

Truly.